I dono how long I can hang on....I'm trying my very best to hang on..How silly I am to do my FYP at this sem when it's not my final sem..and gotta read so much research paper and cramming everything together and clashes with other courses and the deadline is so near...
Woke up 6 plus am to do my research paper..felt so tired..go to school..din mark anything but do my research paper..break time do research paper...go home...still have to do research paper..i dono what i'm reading..i dono what i'm writeing..i just feel...tired...
Why other ppl can go out to have fun on a Friday night when I can't..
Why is the road jam with cars to go out dinner on a Friday night..and I got to jam with them and go back home to do my work...
Why other ppl can just go overseas without hesitation and no clashes in their schedule..
Why do I need to go for courses even when it's a school holiday weekend..
Why do my house money got stolen by my one and only dad and made everyone so unhappy..
Why do I still remember how my dad stole my money when I was young..
Why are people can go overseas..I cannot..
被这个家绑住一辈子，哪里都去不了
好想离开，又狠不下心，怎么办
Sad? Maybe I need to have that feeling to make myself feel better..
I need to breathe...but I really can't breathe well..
I wanted to sleep but I can't sleep well when all the stuff just keep haunting me..
After these years of studying..I can feel that my health is deteriorating.. My eyes are bad..rheumatism..body aching everywhere and it just won go away..
Is it worth it..I really feel like giving up...when most of the time I am feeling hungry..when a small bread is my dinner..when I need to rush for lessons and my heart keeps thumping trying not to be late and trying not to get any accident on road..
I'm really tired mentally trying to squeeze in everything..
I really need to push everything aside...cheer up..and get things done...
