two young girls having cat fight on the bus on mon on the way to sim..they're just the same age as me..or older..wear until very nice..office wear..and just becos the bus is too crowded..the brake made one of them flare up becos one hit the other's nose..and then they start to hit each other..pull each other's long hair..and one of the girl's earphone is spoilt..den they ended with one of them saying..we'll go to the police..the last scene i saw was they got off at sim settling the issue..

probably it's a mon...or probably one on the girl is not in a good mood..end up they just flare up..if it's me..would i? probably not..not bcos i don wana throw face..why bicker and end up so unhappy cos of small things..the world is so big..there're so many things tt u can put ur effort on it..

as the world is so big..it's difficult to keep in touch with each other all the time..some ppl i can only get to see them once a year..when it's time to meet..die die oso will find a time to meet..everyone is so busy..there'll sure be a time for us to put down some stuff and pick new things up..it's nt about just laughing your life through..or being sad all the way..

everywhere..no matter whether in school or outside..there's always someone who will play certain role..a joker..an observer..blah blah..ppl will change and react differently in every group..he may be a joker in this group..but an observer in another group..

just talked about having a gang of frenz..or being labeled as being a gang..is not good..now then i noe..i tot gang is a neutral word..just like..a gang of frenz..a gang of good frenz..wad's so negative about the word gang..i take it in another perspective..that being a gang is really a group of frenz who treat each other well..how come treat each other good is a bad thing..i cannot understand..how come work should only be work and personal should only be personal? as long as we noe wad we are doing..and we're doing it well and good..why not..but really..nobody will say they are in a gang even if they have...cos it's always being associated with "gangster"..cannot be good gangster meh..y gangster should be bad..it's ppl who label the word for being bad..so y bother?

i find politics is so cute..invisible arrow shooting everywhere..really..there's is even in the olden days...even ancient times..if not there won be so many story of the good dying so early le..

although translation is very difficult..it's really a wonderful tool which i like it very much if i'm able to do a good job..

yesterday i just grumbled and cried over having too many piles of stuff haven mark..15 piles..including workbook worksheet composition assignment test extra worksheets comprehension spelling writing...

3 weddings to go..plus concert band having syf..mar holiday 7 days gotta go back for 5 days..assignments...i gotta keep reminding myself and flip through my planner which day got wad thing to do..morning sth on..afternoon another thing on..den at nite oso got some other stuff..again it goes..sleepless nites..mum and sis pluck at least 10 half white grown and 10 full white grown ones out from me..i can't be bother to pluck..but i noe..i'm old!

I'll be busy all the way until next month...

today is friday..just handed in another assignment...

sat..morning go temple to rehearsal for nex week's performance..afternoon go sim study from 130 to 430...den got buffet at another temple..

sun...need to rush my another translation assignment due on sunday...

mon..lecture at sim again...

wed...go gym..

fri...lecture again..

sat...lecture at sim..

sun..performace at temple.....evening..yvonne's birthday party

mon...lecture...

wed...gym..

fri..lecture..
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13 mar...colleague's church wedding

15 mar..colleague's wedding dinner

20 mar..nie friend's wedding

27 mar..lecture....fren's wedding...

my backache coming back again..it just makes me stop all my activities and i couldn't enjoy at all..

3 weddings in a month..i gotta be broke le

My Wish..I Dream...

Tiger year has come..and I'm proud to say that I'm 24 now. To me, age is not a problem as long as you are young at heart. I'm still jumping and running around like a teenager..I still have things that I'm looking forward to:

1. Watching a good movie while eating popcorn and eat a good meal with friends
2. Able to go out together as one family and eat happily
3. Own a house that has alot of glass pane window, with LCD TV, a good bed and sofa, a study room with a big table and lots of shelves

Although some of the things I couldn't achieve now, I will try. You get some, you lose some. "1" is simple, but to have both 2 and 3 to come true, it's not so possible.

I am looking forward to leave the family to have my own home, but I know once I leave the family..it will be a broken one with members quarreling with each other..

if i rank my worries, it will be like this:
1. family
2. family
3. family

cos it'll affect all other things..

ppl are sad that they couldn't eat reunion dinner together..while some are sad becos we ate a sad reunion dinner together..which one is more painful to you? or to me?

yes..i'm blessed cos i can live healthily..any extras will always be a bonus...

i just want to say..beacuse the weather is hot..it makes a person feel moody and easy to flare up..

when can i have a happy family?

this chinese new year is the least red packet that I've got...4...2 from my parents..and the other 2 from my bf side..

other than the reunion dinner on new year's eve...and a quarreling one and everyone eating unhappily..and going to my bf's house to bai nian...as well as mark my books....and went to chinatown to snatch cheap goodies before 12...i din go anywhere at all..din celebrate valentine...nor did we go to bai nian..

at least sis did..she went out with temple ppl to learn cooking...bai nian..sing k tmr..all i did is watch tv..mark my stuff..do assignment..and nothing else..wear new clothes oso counted ba..

but i'm glad this new year..our family don quarrel alot as much as i tot..we're playing mahjong..with mum not speaking a word at all..and only talk to me alone..and i broke my glass bottle on 1st day of new year..and i bet there are still some glass pieces on the floor..

mum's side ppl from johor wanted to come and stay over.. she rejected..saying her leg is painful and she don have the energy to entertain them..that's all for the new year..and now i'm still struggling with my assignment..reluctant to do cos i dono how to do..

and i'm glad..i'm really glad that my leg pain has start to go away...it's such a happy thing to stay alive without having any pain anywhere..not like my mum..i'm oredi very blessed..thanks..

my backbone is as painful as ever..even after going for a rub..

just woke up from the sofa..oredi told sis i wanted to sit...but she just slept there like a pig..end up i doze off in an awful position..and woke up more painful..she don have any sympathy in me de..oredi noe i'm in pain and still don wan to let me have any space to sit on the sofa..

i feel so angry...and painful..it definitely will affect my mood more or less..as the pain is always there..the more sad and angry i am..the more painful it is..it's really painful from the back and buttock all the way down the leg..

i hated myself for walking so slow..but i couldn't walk fast..

late night..i was waiting for bus by myself..saw 2 guys at the bus stop too..i tot they're waiting for the same bus together..den i realise..one guy is accompanying the other guy to wait for the bus to come before he goes home..that was nice..sometimes frenz do treat frenz very well..

and yes..as wad my colleague says..there are politics in the school as well..for me..as long as i don think there is..there won be..to me..i won go and dislike the person just becos of wad the person always do..wad for..everyone is always looking at everyone's fault...and when u really dislike the person..u'll say..this person doesn't have any good points at all..y do i need to like that person..

actaully i rather take a neutral stand to look at the person y he or she reacts like tat..there's always a reason for the person to do sth..which makes others look at him or her as bad..i rather find out y...den just hate that person just becos everyone is doing the same thing..

wad's wrong with liking a person that everyone hates?as long as u don follow wad the person does..den ppl will ask..y do u need to like the person in the first place..y not thin kit of another way..isn't it better to make more frenz..if there's a choice..who would want others to dislike yourself..at least get to know more about the person before u set ur own judgement with the others...den the person might change for the better..nobody knows wad will happen unless u try..

change urself first..the others might change together with you too..

it's just pure busy...there's lotsa little little stuff here and there which makes me feel very irritated cos i scared i forgot to do them...those little things just makes me busy..

went for tui na..after a few days..still pain..first few days i couldn't even walk properly..and i think the whole school knows that sth's wrong with me..they tot i sprained my leg..which is not..while others who know says how come i'm so young yet my problems are those who will get it when they are old..and the doctor says..i tired myself too much..cannot walk too much..or carry too haevy stuff..which is difficult..unless i'm not a teacher..

i wanted to spend more time with him..new year is near..i dono y i sort of scared of not having any celebration at home..no reuion dinner..and it just makes me feel sad even the thought of it..i don care..if they don have i go jaja's house eat since his ma is oso cooking vege dish for third brother..i don wan to have a sad new year...

as usual..ppl will get more ang paos den me..but the thing is..i never ever open my ang pao to spend the money before..so i should have more than them over the years..just keeping and not spending...ha..

these days i've been bathing and sleeping late..i shouldn't do that..hmm....pain pain go away..don ever come back for any day!

high fever suddenly at night..

as usual..i have mc but still go to school..

i just can't find a reason to stay at home..usually the fever will get worse if i stay at home..

went to tts hospital to see jaja's mum..she went for a head scan and need to stay there for a few days..

i dono..i just ad fever after going there..probably bcos i'm too tired..or i absorb too much negative force in the hospital..seeing his mum having bruise on the hand is cruel..and a needle on the joint of the arm is more cruel than ever..it's so painful..i've been in the hospital and noe wad it's like..the blood will come outand u cannot put down ur hand..if nt blood will flow out..

i make jaja lose money during mahjong..don have the winning mood..

once the fever is here..i can't do anything at all..diaoz..

been taking cab really alot..forgot there's meeting today in the morning..after seeing doctor just rush down..jaja oso forget..den both of us took taxi..haha..

i need to save more money..i really spend too much..everytime draw 40 bucks den gone..and gone..and gone..