突然间觉得每个人都变得好美好美。每个人都在改变，但我好像从以前到现在...还是一样
我还记得，一年前，time capsule，我对着镜头说：“我要让自己变得更有自信。”
我需要这个自信，让我更加好地完成需要做的工作。
对，我觉得我进步了一小点，可是还是不够快。
自信能够带我到很远很远的地方...
有做不完的工作要做，放假可别叫我出去。
年底了，大家都在讲花红。
对我来说：有什么分别？多的钱还是当家用。
大家的钱都多了，我还是一样：一个月六百包到完。
突然发现，连年纪比我小的老师赚的钱还比我多，可是到头来，最忙还是我
难道我要大声说一声：不公平？？
哈...怨天尤人不是我的风格，生不带来死不带去。
我...可以向自己保证∶我不会因为钱而烦恼，更不会吵架，那不是我，我最讨厌为钱吵架
可是，还是有很多人想不开
汽车，房子，什么都有了，然后呢？
凌晨三点，还有人在学校网站，和我讨论工作。
我好累，可是我是开心的...
我，薛美华，已经24岁，过了两个十二年，相信已经了无遗憾，不枉此生
我很庆幸，到现在仍然是活着的，至少我不会有窒息的感觉
我很喜欢现在的朋友，工作，生活
这一切的一切是上天给我的，有些事情就是注定的，有这么多就是这么多
还有什么事实需要用吵的，不能好好说吗
我爱独处，我爱自由，我爱蓝天，我爱绿草，我爱海边
希望能够有一天，我能放下心中的大石，无忧无虑地向前奔跑
saw my friend having fun with his camera and took down beautiful pictures..
http://footprintzofthepast.blogspot.com/me too..i wanted to try out taking beautiful pictures..i will..when i have the time to buy a camera and go to beautiful places to try out all the shots..to catch beautiful moments..before that...i'll make sure i take 10,000 pictures first before i buy a really professional camera..
my height does give me some problem in the angle...i will take note
Enjoyed my morning today...
As mum is in hospital..i'm alone at home..woke up an hour earlier to do housework..sweep the floor..tidy up fo2 zhuo1..wash clothes..do everything by myself..
i enjoyed the moment when i ate my breakfast..listening to soft music..reading the new paper...just by myself..
yes..i'm a typical scorpio..
there are lots of things that u need to take note when u're leaving the house..make sure gas not on...windows closed..power switch off..refill my water bottle..lock the door before i come out..
although there are many things ahead for me to do..i shouldn't fear..i shd face it bravely..and don underperform
went round and round today becos of an answer to the exam question paper..
jaja is sad cos he's p2 nt doing well..
i'm happy because my LALA class can actually get A1 from fail to pass..
life is really full of ups and downs for diff ppl..
looking forward to the bintan trip..japan trip..and another short trip towards end of the year..trips and trips and trips!
but first..i need to get over with my exam..
i'm turning 24..new challenges coming..i need to know what i want and what i can do first with a chain on my leg..before i can start doing..
most importantly..i should try to let go of myself..
Mum has been admitted to the hospital today...she wanted to go although doctor say it's nt necessary has her fever has subsided and stable..she has been coughing very badly and couldn't take it...
Sis says after testing and x ray...her white blood cell is high..which means she has infection..in the lungs..so it's better to stay for observation..wanted to stay in ward B but need to wait for quite long..so doctor suggest she go for the 24 hour observation ward..if everything's ok she can go home aft that..
i'm quite surprised that she took initiative to go hospital...as she has been afraid to go for any major checkup..at least nw do a thorough checkup..cos she old oredi..infection very fast will get worsen..so it's better to stay for observation..she don wan us to visit her but only sis..but she don wan sis to stay overnight there..we don want to leave her alone..scared she'll be frighten or afriad..as she's sick..she might be mentally unstable..so it's better to stay with her..
jaja ask me to go and visit her tmr morning..but mum oredi say don..as弟子规says..居有常业无变...which means do not change ur everyday routine of living..so that ur parents won be worried..so these few days..i did my own stuff..trying nt to react abnormally and trying to keep everything normal..she oso wouldn't want us to worry for her..but i knew she wanted the attention of someone to care for her..protecting myself from not getting sick is oso a way of not letting her worry..if i'm sick..she's even more worried..i knew she will..
suddenly i have breathing difficulty..and i don't why...must relax....relax..
