finally...I"VE FINISHED MY EXAMS!!!
and next..is my piles of books..
as i'm trying to relax after exam..i "cyberstalk" the others from facebook...
just see how the others are getting on with their life..some were doing very well..while many others are striving hard in their lifes with work and exams...
my dream lover: engaged to his love one, happily ever after
1st bf: after the death of his last gf, remain single for a year...and recently popped out another gf..shd be his 10++th..
2nd bf: found attached and broke long time ago..
other crushes: some single, some attached
i keep feeling that i still lived in the past..and don wan to let go..don want to forgive myself of those things that i've done wrong..what others did to me..and forget about it..yes..time will heal..but things that have happened before..how will I forget..i'm still trying hard to accept myself for who I am..accept my past..accept my present..be my true self and live on..
everyone is moving on..what am I doing? am I moving on too? or still at the same old spot without change? should i change anything to make myself comfortable? am i comfortable with the way I am now? can i just go for what i want? or heed advices before I take my step...? the "no no no" that my family gave me in the past...i still could not walk out of it..they don like doesn't mean i cannot do it..am i just too obedient until i dono how to break through? do i have any feelings for myself to take care of myself and take care of the things that i wanted? if i can live to be "Janice Sit Mei Hwa"..I would be a much more happy person than the lock that was given by my family long ago..given me the keys to unlock the lock..but so used to it until i dono how to unlock myself..or rather..after unlocking wad am i going to do..
live if full of question marks..
it's time to let go of some stuff..no point not letting go..because you can't go back to the same as the past..no one will ever be the same as yesterday..
i sincerely wish you all the best and happily ever after..
