my p2 class is a high ability class...and yet...more than 6 of my pupils fail their first spelling this year..why? i keep asking myself how to push them to let them have the standards that they shd have..

p1 is the same...i randomly test some of them han yu pin yin...they couldn't even read out the pin yin that i wrote on the board..even their form teacher was sick due to shouting and screaming at them..i make them feel guilty by saying they drove their teacher until she's sick..if they don wana study just drive me away..

and then..2 pupils laugh at a smaller size kid while he was collecting their workbooks..i scolded them..one gal..still noe how to cry..i let her sit down..the other one..scold until puke blood still no reaction..

today their form teacher's nt here...2 different chinese teacher went in for relief...one said they like to move around...throw paper on the floor and din pick up...the other said..this class is different from other p1 class..they'll know how to talk back to the teacher....and jaja walk pass the class..they happily go to the toilet without any teacher around..and kana scolded..

my autistic kid...every 5 min i gotta check whether he's doing his work..it slows me down and the whole class down..i'm behind my schedule..

after p1 i went to my p2 class..i was explaining the "good habits booklet" to them..i think i said some touching stuff that i felt touched myself..things tt i've nvr said before to them..

i know teaching is not about shouting..but when talking doesn't work..shouting is really an immediate cure to the noise in the class..

but..the more i shout..the further i'm away from them..

i shouldn't shout..it spoils my throat..and it doesn't make them turn better..

i saw my p1 class form teacher how she uses soft approach to her students..i think it works..plus the technique i learnt during temple lessons..no matter how difficult the class is...it will turn out to be better...

so...i talk to them nicely about 7 ppl failing my spelling..i dono how they are going to answer to their parents..i don need to scold..their parents will do the job..i don want to do double work or give them double scolding..sometimes i just feel it's my fault that they couldn't score well cos i reallly can do things to make them revise spelling in sch and don need to revise at home at all..but i din..cos time doesn't permits me to do that..tt's y i gotta let go and let them learn by themselves..

to me..whether they have any achievements is none of my business..but i know alot of kids will find joy to have good results as they will be happy when their parents are happy about it..i want them to be happy..not just becos they need to score well for the sake of me..

i'm not telling u to give me 100 marks..i said..as long as u try ur best..cos the 100 marks that u get now..u can't take it with you to p3...p4..p5..p6...but as long as u're hardworking and tried ur best..ur grades will improve..tt's y having a heart to try ur best is much more important than having 100 marks now..

i noe i said alot to them..i think bcos nowadays adults always talk to them about grades and grades..and nobody ever taught of teaching them the right attitude towards studying..tt's y they're so result oriented..tt's y i always talk to my class..give them "lectures"..usually is scold until say "lectures"..i saw some ppl nodding their head..i dono how long this effect will be on them..but i hope this will change them...

today..the boy whom i scolded yesterday....whom i talked to him nicely...who promise me he won take anything out to play during lesson today....he did it..he didn't take anything out to play..i praised him..he was so so so happy about it...i should remind myself to praise my students..and also to chite chat with them..i shouldn't be stingy about it..i shouldn't turn to be a "scolding machine"..

after much thinking..i felt better..having the right attitude is the most important in doing anything..