it's really great to have a taste of bubu tea after a tired day...
my colleague was asking me..."don u feel happy? it's friday! don need to see them for the next few days and have a break!" to me..my mind is all about how to handle them for the rest of the year...8 different classes of music is making me puke..first time i teach until my voice cannot take it..repeating stuff again and again..it's so monotonous..when i dono how to teach..they're too young to learn the music that i wanted to teach them..when i'm like using half english and chinese to teach music using an english music textbook..
i wish they change the timetable until i'm free for the last one or two periods..den i can save some money on cabs to unisim..
mpre and more stuff coming up..and more and more names of me everywhere..it's like everything that's gotta do with P2 chinese i gotta handle..parents calling up to ask about P2 stuff will be transferred to me..i dono wad i'll become when i start my studies again..i've been going to school earlier than last year these few days..
i'm afraid..that i start to shine again..will everything stay the same..will i still shine and smile so carefreely as before..i noe deep inside my heart i'm very afraid to take up the job..to take up so many jobs..and ppl keep calling my name..and even parent telling principal tt i have taught her kids well...praising me for teaching well..the more i hear..the more afraid i am..
to others...wad's there to be afraid..i'm afraid because i haven reach there yet..i don expect myself to reach there..i seem to have responsibility everywhere..be it as a small CL head..as a student..as a daughter..as a gf..or as a dyber..i haven grow yet (mentally) to be prepared for all these..
although my self confidence is low..i know i will subconciously be carrying a very heavy burden on my mind..i know i will be very stress up for no reason..i just gotta try and do my best
live with no fear and no regret...try my very best and live to the fullest..
