2010..here i come!

It's just the starting of a new year..and i oredi kana alot of stuff in school..

-P2 CL head
-teaching 8 different class of music (i don have music background)
-in pe committee althou i don teach pe anymore (they say might need me to teach putizhang)
-one of the ic during fire alarm (thou they say there's nth to do de)

but the lucky thing is i'm not form teacher..everytime admin stuff will take up a lot of time..

my sim lessons for the first sem shd be mon and fri..and den for my timetable...mon last period got lesson...CL banding somemore..i gotta cab to sim le..12 weeks leh..20 bucks each time..shd be 240 bucks..sigh..really waste money..but i don wana be late for lesson..it's so difficult to squeeze time to study le..it's better for me to go for my lesson and listen attentively..

i'm now fatter than usual (46+kg)..but i guess i'll slim down when i start to get busy..

2009 is a year where i really started teaching for the whole year..and til now..already past one and a half year..it's so fast..and it oso means me and my bf oso noe each other for about..1 and a half year or more? there are really lots of times when there are clashes between us cos out thinking is really opposite of each other sometimes..sometimes it's good..and sometimes it's bad..cos we couldn't understand y we tink so differently sometimes and sure there'll be quarrels..but from wad i feel is that it's still better to pak tor when u're older..den u noe wad u want..cos studying and working is a totally different thingy..u can find someone tt u like and pak tor while studying..but working is another thingy..u need to consider lotsa factors..and mindset and thinking is really different..tt's from my experience la..the relationships tt i'm getting in is more and more stable as i grow up..

plans for 2010

- live healthily..so as not to fall sick ( falling sick is just wasting more of my time..time is precious!) which means
1. sleep latest by 1, wake up by 8
2. drink at least 1 litre of water per day in school
3. exercise at least on or twice a week (i just sign up another 2+1 year)
4. when it's time to eat...just eat!
5. cut down time on watching drama and tv
6. bath latest by 11pm (unless i go for sim classes)
7. do not fall asleep on the sofa or computer
8. go to the bed and sleep!

actually all this is just a continual of wad i wanted to do from last year..just that after some time i didn't follow very closely

u noe..actually i've been thinking...that studying is just a waste of time..after all the talks about the world ending in 2012...and being so busy while studying and working..i dono y i make myself so busy..and just for the sake of getting a degree and higher pay..is it worth it..or not..i've really given up alot of stuff tt i wanted to do..guitar..caligraphy..jap class..wushu..old folks home...i seem to have a smaller circle and lost alot of frenz cos i couldn't catch up with them..does tt make me someone who doesn't treasure my frenz? no..i really wanted to...i really have the heart to do lots of things..but time doensn't permit it..

i still have my dream of being a volunteer...and going overseas to help the needy...i dono when i can do it..althou i noe i must DO IT NOW..but sometimes just really tied up to alot of things..

i wanted to be nice to my family..but they're being hostile to each other until i dono how to change the situation..and becoming like them instead..i don wan to be like that..but i dono how to stop it..

i'm still dreaming of my dream house..with the glass window tt stretch from top to bottom..and having a comfortable bed and sofa..tv plus all the karaoke sound system and wii..where i can sing and play with my loved ones...not forgetting my study room filled with cupboards and cupboards to put my books..and a cosy corner to read my books..by the glass window..

i've been looking forward..yet feeling afraid..tt it's nt so easy to achieve wad i wanted..

i met a ladyat the gym..asking lotsa practical questions like how many Cs do u want ur partner to have..or things like would u rather take 200k or a good location house..love or bread..to me..money is really not important..if u do not have ur health and happiness..do u tink u really can be happy to spend it alone..

i rather take the house and a not so rich husband..so that we have something to work towards to..to fill up wad we tink is lack of..and work towards not the typical 5Cs...but compassion..care..concern..towards each other and everyone..i rather live short life and have a happy life instead of a long and unhappy life..

everytime i see people who are rich buying lotsa branded bags i wanted to faint liao..jaja says those are just stupid woman..it's nt sth that they need..it's just sth tt they want to satisfy their desire..if i have the money i rather donate it away and share the joy with others..after living in a home which always quarrel over money..i really don wan to quarrel over it..i don wan..and i don need so much money..i can really need a simple life being a volunteer and having the little money to survive..tt's my dream..but i have my responsibility to provide for my family now..because for this reason..i ahve to stay..

during the school meeting..we're discussing about how oure future kids are..i found out that everyone realise nowadays the kids are selfish..really selfish..cos they just think of themselves and tinking of earning easy money..being a billionaire without working hard..and everyday it's just facing the computer and computer...sometimes even i myself am stuck in this whole thingy..

when i was in taiwan..the news keep showing on saving the earth..we are depleting the resources and stuff..it really leads me to think that the world in is really ending soon... in my era...and the tv showing lotsa countries disappearing..i guess singapore will oso be sinking soon..just tt we just heck care..cos it hasn't come yet..everyone is like trying not to think about it..but it's really a fact that we've going to face sooner or later

so why am i still here now doing nothing? just do it! now! we should treasure wad we have now..really..