just bought a new hp..and the hp cover haven arrive yet..den i'm thinking of buying a pouch first so that i can put in my hp and it won get scratched easily..den..jaja says..aiya..u not so niang one la..put hp into the pouch is just not u...to him..he doesn't mind my boyish character..he knows even if i have the pouch..end up i oso din use..but the thing is my hp now really kana scratched alot..esp at the screen..sigh..new hp..

thursday..shopping day..we "toured" around northeast line..
hougang: shop and eat dinner
kovan: collect my jeans
serangoon: went to jaja house to get some books
potong pasir: home sweet home

everything within 3 hours..i bought a bag($10), small wallet($2), coax dress($15.50)..everything's on sale..left shoe nvr buy..if nt will be a full set..haha..the things that i bought just nice for me to wear pretty pretty and go ion orchard shop liao..can't resist..everything is sale sale sale..all half price..discounts..

the more i buy..the more empty i feel..sometimes i just feel stress..so i buy..i dono y i work so hard for..until i don have time to go out..don have enuff time to sleep..don have time for proper meal..i'm always hungry..just becos every tue and wed nite i can't have a proper meal..if i don eat..where do i have the energy to run and chiong..so i just eat..no matter wad..eat more rather than eat less..i noe myself that i'm getting thinner..it's unhealthy..i gotta eat it back! who cares about fat or not..i just want to to healthy! don always say u're fat..you are just you..as long as u're healthy..u're pretty..at most don eat so much titbits..but don ever try to don eat or eat very little and make urself hungry..the body will secrete juice that makes u fatter..

i tend to get afraid of getting up..i don have motivation to bath..cos everytime u bath..u sleep..just becos u need to get ready to wake up very early the next day to work..i start to get stress symptoms..like how come other ppl can go and have fun but i cannot..how come they don need to do those things but i gotta do..how come other ppl gets help when they need but i don have..i noe that asking so many how come is no use..end up everything will still be the same..i still have to do my stuff..still gotta sleep less..still gotta work hard..i noe life won be so easy and simple for me..sometimes suddenly there's just some cock up until i don even have the time to breathe and other things come again..but i noe that all this will just make me appreciate life more..that time is important that i shouldn't drain it away..no matter i'm playing or studying or working..as long as i'm seriously doing wad i'm doing..i'm not wasting it..better than others who still dono wad they're doing..

i really need time..time..can u just tick slower..i really need you..