national day celebration in school was over..they had a great time playing the games that i designed..and i overheard the parent volunteers said the games were fun..i really felt a sense of satisfaction after all the anxiety i had before that..took a cab to sch and reach at 6am in the morning..checking if the equipment were there..

i shdn't have worn the new shoe..and i got blisters..i was so lost of wad to do..jus running here and there dono wad i shd do..lucky there were ppl guiding me and teachers helping..i could see even some teachers were playing the chaptehs by themselves..and they were like all going haywire too..ha..

noise from them is a norm..i really thot there would be cock up..but..end up i jus worry over nth..but really thanks to all the help and guidance from the teachers..if nt i realy won noe wad to do..

i really wish to take photos when they were playing the game..as a momento..the first time planning games for lower primary sports day..but too bad..i was too busy to take any pictures..but there're photographers taking..i hope i could get it from them..my class they were so happy..and said they won first in 1 or 2 games..i dono..i was so busy to notice anything..

these days i'm really busy..studying and marking my stuff..there was one girl who came up to me and got to know me because she's been seeing me in all the module that she took..and i found out that she was a year 3 student..while i took those module when i'm only in sem 1..i really worried..althou i noe i can't change anything now but to keep on with wad i had now..

cme book needs to be checked..and i started to flip thru the book for unmark pages..and as i saw the family photos that they paste in..i felt so blissful for them..and on the other hand..i really envy that they had such a great family..and i dono y i started to have watery eyes as i saw more and more photos..they went out for family day..went for overseas trip..but wad i have is only grumbling form mumearly in the morning on how pain she iswith her rheumatism..how lazy dad is and nvr help out in any housework..morning is the best time for me to mark and study..and all the grumbling jus make me out of the mood to do anything..she just reminding me to how painful i am in this family..i am aching all over all the time..i din even grumble at all..i don even have the time to bother over these small little things..i jus want to finish my own stuff..I REALLY DON HAVE THE TIME!

i'm so glad that i had a break after national day celebration..and today..the first time out of so many times..tt i really felt full..i was so hungry everyday ever since my lesson stsrted..everytime went there i couldn't have a proper meal..but to but small snacks to eat..i don have the mood to eat when i'm alone..nor here nor there..but i oredi tell myself to eat no matter how busy..so i ate..but i was nvr full..at home..i jus always feel bloated with all the dono wad water and drink and herbal tea..and always stuff me with food and food and food..but i was nvr full..

and now..i feel bloated after eating two and a half bun..but i'm not full at all..

i can't go anywhere jus bcos i'm studying..althou ppl said..wah..very good..lesson only twice a week..but the thing is..i'm working..i need to study..i need to mark my books..i don even have the time to go out..and i can't go for holidays jus bcos i need to do my assignment..i like the course i'm taking..but i don like this kind of life..jaja say..this sem is the toughest..as long as it's over ur life will be better..it's not even one month yet..and i'm starting to feel that i couldn't cope..i neglected alot of things..no guitar..no gym..no dating..no matter how much time i squeeze..my body coulsn't take it..i need breaks..i need to watch tv..watch drama..go out to breathe some fresh air..and i'll be marking very slowly if i feel stress..sometimes just no mood to mark...i really cannot help it..i really force myself to mark..and force myself to sleep more on the bus..4 more months to go..i have to force myself to take it..there are also ppl out there striving very hard to live..i must...too..