just feel very empty on a friday nite without going anywhere or anything urgent to complete..so ate lotsa titbits with my dinner..green pea titbits..green tea royce chocolate..just after i finish my soup..i had a long burp..choke..cough until very badly..and just threw up..i do not have enuff time to go to the toilet or basin..end up at the outside washing dishes basin..and some on the floor..it's really a mess..and my shirt are all stained..i immediately cleared the mess..and went to bath..all the green green thing came out..through my mouth and nose..had a hard time clearing the pipe..luckily my family just say me..din scold me..before that was thinking about all my favourite desserts tt i could eat..cheesecake.chocolate mousse..cookies and cream..ice cream waffle..and a cup of sth milky..now..after the puke..no appetite le..

nowadays..too tired..sleep until 12 plus on the sofa..den wake up to bath..den like din sleep alot..hair start to drop alot..the very mild mild flu and cough jus doesn't go away totally..and now for like no reason threw up so badly..i suddenly gt a thot..wad if really 1 day..i kana some illness or sth..nowadays appetite very good..can eat and eat..ppl like me shdn't be eating so much de..i oso dono wad's wrong with me..

anyway..today is a very stress and relax day for me..in a way tt i gotta present the games tt i design for p2 games day..but i only need to teach for 4 periods today..until now..my hand are stil a little trembling..nt bcos i'm scared..jus bcos i carried the whole basket of equipment all up by myself to the hall..i was so gan chiong cos i arrive half an hour before tt.. den i forgot to take the equipment tt i need to bring up..so agar agar use my memory to see wad i need to bring..and i carried the whole big basket of things up..with some of the things still in the pe room cos i really have no hands to carry anymore..couldn't put it inside the basket..3 storey high..i was watching the kids running during recess..while i climbed..and stopped to take breaths before i continue..as i'm nt tall enuff..really feel like dragging the basket up the stairs..but i noe couldn't work..no matter wad..i jus force myself up and place can le..

luckily later jaja got help me take the remaining things up so tt i don need to walk down again..the sch's now very big..cannot like tat up and down..den receive a msg.."meeting in the staff room"..i was like oh gosh..my hard work went into vain..lucky i got call and ask them come up..and it's quite a success..don need explain much..jus see le den will noe wad to do..jaja jus said...this morning, when i reach hall, see u sweating like a pig... but then end up your presentation of games went very well... i supposed it is all worth it..i also feel happy for myself..

we were talking about satisfaction..then i said..i noe i oredi try my best le..try until i fall sick..worry alot..this and tat..even if i don do well..at least it is my hardwork and effort tt i've put in..diff ppl got diff expectation..i always like to work the hard way to make myself satisfied with the achievement tt i've done..even if i find a short cut way..i won feel the same as wad i feel now..

i dono y i said that..but i jus suddenly thot of it..alot of stuff..really gotta been thru it..or probably the hard way before u really feel things u shd feel..

anyway..stil don feel very good after puking..don wana type so long..

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