just thinking of destressing out..so write a blog entry..

hm..their exams finally over..while i was doing the result analysis of my class..i came to realise that my p1 result is better than my best class p2..and i wonder y..and some of my p2 buang..i oso dono y..u noe..teachers r somehow comparing with each other on how their class are doing..here and there..my p1 class seem to be the top..p2 class..probably..for me i din bother to go and calculate..it's so tedious..adding and subtracting the marks..all my retribution i receive from them..i haven mark a bit..and there's some cca stuff to settle..quite rush..which i dono how to do de..

some teachers are afraid the upper ppl will ask them to "lim kopi"..cos their class result is nt wad it's expected to be..i'm jus trying my best to do wad i can for the kids so tt they won regret having bad results..but i don wan to be called or be too shining..it's nt a good thing..found out lotsa stuff of individual teachers..lotsa stuff is left to be unspoken..everyone has their own view..own doings..and stuff like tat..

i dono..i jus wana find peace..and i try to be more friendly..thou i still dono wad to say to the teachers when i meet them..i must try to relax and nt to keep guarding..jus be my natural self..i believe they'll like me as who i am and not someone who's trying to act..if they say i'm kiddish den let it be..for me..i believe as long as results shows..i'm nt afraid of anything that i've done..thou there's always some hiccups here and there..just sometimes feel very lost that there's so much stuff to do..and dono how to do and wad to do first..how? everyone is so busy and i don even dare to ask for help...i must brace myself to ask..ask..ask! actually i jus don wan ppl to notice me..jus scared i'll be too shiny den throw me lotsa stuff..i like the present me..able to soend time with the kids..i noe i won be staying like this for long..so i must treasure and teach them more now..

it's tired..really tired..althou sometimes really can't face this kind of life..but stil gotta face it..

is it really tt impt to have more money..to lead a better life? really? if i were to choose another time..i'll still choose to be the simple me..not slaves of the $$..i like hard-earned money..so tt i''ll really treasure the things tt i've bought..or things tt i've enjoyed..i like this kind of feeling..at least i won have that kind of regret or guilty cos i slack and din try my best..in life..lotsa things are fake..isn't it..just find the true you..

at least i noe wad i'm doing..