it's another sunday..tomorrow is a holiday..actually today really don wana step out of the house..feel tired..to go out everyday..really wish to stay at home for just a day without going out..but long time go for guitar le..so..still step out..

long time din play guitar..hands seems nt so flexible..and gotta think longer..

actually thinking of going home stragihtaway...but since i'm in sity hall..might as well go popular at suntec where i wana go..clearance sale 20%..

while i was walking..i saw guardian..went in to find mask and sanitizer which sis need..was in there for a long time looking..dono wad to buy..or whether i bought the right one..cos no1 to discuss..i did call sis..and luckily she picked up..if nt really dono wad to buy..but end up i still stayed quite long inside cos couldn't find wad i want..den along the way..wherever there's watson or guardian i'll jus walk in..hoping to find wad i wan..

bought a very comfortable bata shoe at 30 bucks..30 bucks just gone like tat..but very difficult to find shoes tt suits me..

aft gg in to lotsa shops to look around..finally..i reach popular..i was oredi 1 bag full of stuff to take..shoes..clothes..my bag..sis stuff..it's difficult to shop with one bag of stuff with me..tooka big photo album which i like..and some stuff which i can use in school..i'm oredi full of stuff on my hand..finally..found a basket to contain everything inside..it was heavy..i tried to grab wadeva i can..and look for stuff tt i think will need..

i regret nt to ask jaja come..1stly..i noe he doesn't wana go popular..secondly..coming all the way down just to eat lunch..so i ask him don bother to thin kof coming down..cos he give me a feeling tt he don wana come jus to eat lunch with me..tt's wad he always think..always need meal + at least 1 activity + whether the place is accessible to come...tt makes me nt to tell him to come..thou i noe today i'll do lotsa shopping and will shop til quite long..he jus say a "har"..and when i din eat lunch he was unhappy..he thot i gave excuse nt to eat cos i carrying lotsa stuff..i called him actually jus wanted to tell him i carry until really heavy..cannot carry anymore le..it't nt bout whether i eat or not..cos i eat or not ppl don stare or laugh at me..but when i carry lotsa stuff until block ppl's away..cannot take properly...and was dragging the bags instead of carrying..until my lace belt drop oso no hands to tie it back..they keep staring at me and i dono y..until i look down and realise i was very unkempt..no hands to tie it back..no hands to take money take hp take ex link card..a hindrance to ppl..and i'm getting irritated myself too..jaja seems to feel irritated tt i bought so much stuff..ans say i purpisely called to make him feel guilty for not coming down..but how i expect i'll buy shoe buy bag buy so much stuff..feel like buying jus buy lo..and all he's angry bout is i did not eat..wad's the prob with not eating when i'm nt hungry at all..and i stupidly bought a donut and sit down to eat and got stared by others..again..

oh ya..there's 2 happy things that makes me feel happy..1..i bought the first CD in my life...101 drama moods..i was so happy..it's worth buying cos couldn't listen online de...secondly..i think my p1 average for mid yr is quite good..but the think is..all the retribution came back and i cannot mark finish..

on sat..i went to temple to perform as a pregnant woman in the operation theatre..everyone said i acted very well..and one of them ask my sis..how come mama din come to see when i acted so well..mama is always like tat..i think the only time she went to my performance is during sec sch choir when i was one of the solo on stage..but she din enjoy it cos the music is too loud and it scared her..dono when will she see my performance again..

today i ate 2 meals only..11 plus and 6 plus..but tt doesn't matter..ppl say i thin den thin lo..good lo..den mama won say i fat..jaja won comment on anything..but my colleague thot got ppl make me angry until thin thin..haha..