my back is really aching until very jialat..when i was doing hip hop..i was in pain..very pain..i dono how to describe..even when i cough..it'll be so painful..even when i breathe deeply..i thot doing some exercise helps..but it doesn't help at all..
these days family was quarreling..actually the family has been like tat since dad was jobless..mum will scold him for no reason or very small reason..until dad got really fed up..and said wana commit suicide jump out of the window la..divorce la..this and that la..
and yesterady..they quarreled again...over..soup..the soup was spoilt as it's been morning til night..and when i ate the things inside..it was sour..i told dad..dad said it was ok..and aft finish the things inside..i drank the soup..it was really sour..and i told dad again it's really spoilt..and mum woke up..and quarrel..with dad saying too early cook dinner..and mum saying too late eat dinner..dad saying the dishes and soup forver got a kind of smell cos leave for too long..mum saying she's not going to cook ever again..
i was having diarrea that very night..feverish..pale..and need to bring students out for competition early in the morning today..i couldn't care anymore..i really need to sleep..
was really tired..and fell asleep everywhere i went..the competition place..taxi..sch..i couldn't take it anymore..i wana quickly go for my gym..i need a break..but end up i din had a good time there as my back was really aching..
life is so full of misery until sometimes i really dono how to continue anymore..physical pain..and mentally hurting..school..body..family..it seems that all has failed me..sometimes i really dono how to continue..i dono wad others wants..and i jus keep giving..and i din ask for anything..and jus to give and give and give..and give.....and give...
and...i gave up..gave up hope..gave up in my belief that a person will change..give up on alot of things..althou it's painful to let go..but short pain rather than long pain..
