guess which one is mine..and which one is jaja's? the answer is.....you shd noe which one looks more like my table..the 1st one is mine..and the 2nd one is his..really a very big difference rite..teaching same level same subject things shd be the same..but then..sad to say..dono y my table seems to be a mess..and there's only one small whole for me to put and use my laptop..and then..my table shd be bigger than his actually..but dono y like tat..haha..actually the difference is..he throws things and i don throw..left by the previous teacher oso keep..mine oso keep..not mine oso keep..den ppl will find me for extra copies of worksheet..this and that..actually wad u can see is jus the portion of it..beside me..both sides..still got books stacking up de..last time stack only 1 side..now both sides..i oso dono y got so many books..and i don have the habit to put it away from me if it's not marked..
i really cannot believe he's neater than me..but ok la..he's always (seem to be) quite organised and neat la..good impression for ppl too ma..for me..even my kids are complaining...薛老师，你的桌子很乱....yaya..i noe...薛老师，没有位放，放哪里? aiya..jus put anywhere where u can see space..
i really tried to clear my table u noe...but then..it jus pile up more and more..and these days really no time la..not tt i don wan to..really..i really put in my best effort liao..but jus no time lo..
sigh..these 2 days dono y feel very tired in teaching..will tecach until very sian den no energy to teach halfway..or shout until throat too dry den cough..or sometimes stand too long until i cannot stand anymore..
these days worry alot bout lotsa stuff..i wrote a word wrongly in one of the compo..den got parent write on the paper and corrected me..aiya..it's jus a habit tt i wrote that word like tat la..ya la..it jus seems wrong la..tt's y..and ya..the gal of this parent..she's a very good and sensible student..jus tt i seldom see her smile..the feeling tt she gave me is like she's been surpressed..i can really feel it..wad i could only say is...poor thing..she's nt herself anymore..and for a kid..she dono wad is good and nt good for her..she can jus do wad her parents say..and as the time goes by..she'll lose her own self as a kid..tt's wad i'll say..
u noe..sometimes i rather have a talkative class..i rather them be themselves..even if they're unattentive..it's the real them lo..yes..i'll scold..but the thing is i understand they can't sit down properly..i scold scold then over le..but i don wan them to become an adult and lose sth that they shd treasure when they're young..it's just the childhood memories that's precious..u noe..i don have much childhood memories..wad i can remember is classmates bullying me the small sized me..being bullied..and fighting back like a tomboy..but aft tt when i become guai kia i don remember much memories anymore..cos they aren't as deep as those incidents tt happen..in life..i always feel that we shdn't jus 白活..if life is so plain..i really will regret..
went to the gym jus now..but one of my colleague is sick and wanted me to go for tmr's cca duty instead..i was thinking if tmr got go out with jaja..if nt jus say yes will do..den i relied late cos jaja din sya got go out or not..den dono if i need to go down tmr..the whole gym lesson i was worrying...and i couldn't concentrate..i din enjoy at all..and was worrying all the way..i noe i shdn't worry so much..i hate myself for being like tat..i was tinking..siao liao..so many stuff hanging around here and there and i'm getting more and more stress..if others are in my shoe..i bet they won get so stress up..it's jus me..everythine single little thing oso will worry..and sometimes i'll jus go haywire de..
tink i'm getting more and more stress..oh my gosh..
and the most extreme thing is..oredi book to go batam on the weekend AFTER the mar holiday when sch reopens..
these 2 days keep singing in front of the kids..sing and sing..ktv..but sing wad..long time din listen to new songs le..dono wad to sing..see how ba..
