dono y feels like my hair changes colour from time to time..sometimes obvious..and sometimes not..ha..this week..another busy week..wed..did pe sharing with the other pe teachers..i din do a good job..cos i really noe nothing bout pe..cos i'm not pe trained..den still need to show them some things on how to do this and that..but i really dono..end up i quickly share finish den ok le..jaja says they knew the sharing is jus for show la..so don really need to worry whether do well or not..which means do for the sake of doing..today too..he did some chinese sharing too with the other teachers..n we tried to drag time..and cooperate in dragging time..lol..i coop some red papers to write couplets..chun lian..hee..so happy..don need go buy le..

althou it's quite tiring..and dono y i seem to lose my voice at the end of each day..but the more i call the kids..the more i remember their name..i seem to rmb almost 80 to 90% of my p1 class le..think i put in more effort on them..and usually they make me lose my voice..but i dono y..i jus find them very cute..even when i was sleeping at nite..i'll like think of their cute little faces and their innocent look they gave me..and i notice that they tend to cry when i scold them..compare to last week..i dono y..and i could oso stop them from crying..today..a girl in my class cried cos she not well and wants mama..den i try to stop her le..ask her not to cry too much wait cry until got fever..her mum couldn't take care of her tt's y she can't go on mc..thou she has a maid at home..i comfort her and she stop crying..thou she had a glum face..but still ok..and the other is my p1 attitude boy..1st week then he giv me attitude..his paper is always crushed..aft recess i was having lesson with p1..and his form teacher told me he was crying for her dad..and he followed her all the way to outside staffroom..i saw him..i ask y he cry..den i told him no point standing alone and cry..might as well follow me up and do some colouring work and wait for the day to finish..i mange to coax him up...he stopped crying for awhile..gave them some colouring work to do..he wasn't doing..den i told him in another 3 hours time he'll be able to see his dad..he manage to write his name of the paper..and in order not to be the odd one out..i ask the others to hand in the colouring by the following school day..

if i din hear wrongly..i think i heard sth when they're lining up to go home..the last boy at the back which always talks in eng says..薛老师，我爱你..i dono how to reply..cos it's not good to be too close to the students..and it's only the 1st few weeks..or shd i jus say i love you too back from the bottom of my heart..i don dare to say anything..i act as if i nvr listen and i jus lead them down...

actually i'm quite fierce to my p1 class..until they're so scared of me..no speaking of english..shirt remember to tuck in at all times..feets on the ground..once they move i jus scold..every lesson i walk in i jus scold scold scold..scold until they scared..until they dare to own up wad they did wrong..i still remember i ask a naughty kid playing to stand..and i ask him whether he noes y i ask him stand..den he nod with an innocent nod..so cute..den dono y sometimes they din do anything wrong they'll say sorry to me..and i oso dono y..maybe their standard of themselves is higher den wad i wanted..and some they say thank you jus because i pass them the newspaper that they bought and go thru the questions with them..

today..i jus found out got someone din bring my worksheet..i jus look at her and ask y she din bring..den her eyes start to get red le..oh no..so easily tear..i dono y..last week wasn't like that..maybe bcos they noe me..or maybe they like me..dey don wan the teacher that they like to scold them...

and when i haven come into the class.they saw me and keep calling 薛老师..den i ask..u all like me so much ah..haven come in then call le..den still got ppl put up their hand and say..i got call..i din call..den i ask the one who din call..u din call me cos u don like me is it..den they say no..hee..

and it's easy to crack joke and make them laugh..and sometimes they make me laugh..and they oso laugh..i don believe teachers cannot laugh with them..jus noe when u scold..u really scold them for their own good..they'll noe when u're serious and when u're not..if everytime serious teaching..i think i'll bore them to death..i jus feel that i din do a good job in preparing for the lesson well and jus walk in..u noe..when the lesson is over..means it's over..u teach wrongly..it'll be over..it'll jus remain wrong..when i agar agar jus let time pass..den time will jus be wasted like tat..it's so precious u noe..if u grab hold of time tightly and make full use of it..u'll feel very satisfied cos the kids learn alot..the sense of achievement is there..den u won feel the tired anymore..physically tired is bo bian de la..but at least mentally u can still keep on going..tt's y i always try to write down wad a i going to do with the class everyday..jus plan well..den all the things i need i jus take at one go..don need go back staffroom again take so many times..cos i'm prepare...mentally prepared and the lesson will be well...

u noe..last week i still scare scare of them..actually i noe they oso scare scare of me..jus tt we don show to each other..but wad to do..things must be done for both of us..

who shd i appoint for monitor in my p1 class..all the boys quite cui..shd i appoint the cute cute one so that i can see him more..or shd i jus apoint a naughty 1...or shd i appoint a blur blur 1 like me..hmm..feeling sweet